Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Conflict

原来你们都不了解我

你们的观点
你们的想法
有的时候真的让我受不了
不过反过来想
也许有时候我的举动
你们也会不满

人看人
有不同的角度
我相信你们也一样
可是给我的感觉是
我们明明是家人
可是好象只是那种普通朋友

中三那年
自从那场意外
我懂
很多事都改变了

曾经
我也很努力地去改变
我真的有尝试过
可是
你们不懂

我以为
你们会是最了解我的人
可能真的是我的问题
我不懂

我一直很希望
毕业后
可以到别的地方读书
远远的
很希望很希望
并不是因为我很向往
而是因为
我不想留在这里

我想过
如果没有我
或许
你们的快乐就会多一点

我不会气妈妈
我不会欺负你们
我不会跟你们吵架

朋友,
可能你们没有发现过
提到家人的时候
很多时候
我都不是开心的
那种表情
你们没有发现过

所以, 我很羡慕你们。



我想
我不管在哪一方面
都不及格



心里面有很多感受
难过的
遗憾的
从来都没有表现出来过
你们只是认为
是我不会想
那我想的
你们懂吗?


没有人。

2 comments:

  1. To : Dar Dar , Ang Say Li
    Hihi~
    surprise?
    tis is 1st time i post comment at here =]
    dar , i feel sry abt ur dad`s incident
    cheer up okay?
    i didnt meet such things b4 so i nt reali comprehend wt u thinking
    i noe ur father passed away was an enromous blow for u and tis make u keep ur sorrow,desperate inside ur heart
    but pls don act like tis anymore, kay?
    if gt anything jus share with me , tis is wt a bf should do
    concern u , get rid of ur sadness and give u happiness
    besides a mother that dislike her own child is nt present in this world.Ur mother concern u, bt mayb in wrong way
    u nt reali need 2 endure bt jus understand her feeling.U can imagine tat ur mum has been alone for so many years since ur dad passed away and she need 2 take ur dad responsibility 2 take care of whole family.
    Tis is hard,reali.Ur mother is strong, she manage to play 2 roles in same time, so don let ur mum upset.
    Can u imagine tat i am nt by ur side forever?
    it is hard for a ppl 2 face tat her belated lover leaves her forever.Just like ur mum bt she had cope wif this prob.
    She manage 2 cope wif this prob so u can also bcause u re her daughter!
    if ur dad still present,he wont wish 2 see u re crying always
    wt ur dad wanna see is u had change , so u must show him ur improvement
    prove 2 ur mum and dad tat u had bcome stronger
    The most important thing is the unity of family.The absent of ur father wont be a problem bcause he will live in ur heart forever,doesnt it? jus like my maternal grandmother.
    U can think abt ur dad everytime u need.
    Dar ,there is sometime in life whn u fall down and u feel like u hv no strength 2 get b up.If i failed and i give up , do u think i can get up?
    I will try 100 times to get up and do tis again and again if i fall down again.
    Dar , i jus wan u 2 noe tis is nt the end, it is depend on hw u gonna finish.Re u gonna finish strongly or finish weakly?
    u will find the strength 2 get up again.

    From:Dear, Tan Wei Jie

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  2. 其实我都懂..
    只是不说..
    想说只要你想发泄
    你就会讲..
    不想有意没意就提起那些你觉得不开心的事..
    该讲的相信我也讲过了..
    你妈只是用错了爱你们的方式..
    你时常会讲你们不了解的啦
    可是我真的懂..jy也懂的~~

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